Katie Killings' Killer Emporium

so i got everything in order to go to college next year... and i'm sorta terrified. well not really. i'm excited, really excited. but i'm also nervous cuz, although i've been to a new school 4 times before, this is the biggest change yet. and i'm going to another province for it too.

my main concern is that i have very shit luck with making friends at the moment. almost to the point where i've given up trying to be fake-nice to make friends at my school (and mostly because everyone at my school is either a bitch or a creep). but i'm excited for too many new things for that to weigh it all down. i am genuinely nervous about the distance from home though. even though it's not that bad, needing to pay about 50 bucks for a plane ticket so i can go back home is a lil nerve-racking. that's not going to stop me from visiting home regularly though. plus most of my friends are going to stay for college, so if i want to see them again i'm gonna need to be here every now and again.

that doesn't mean i'll be missing here. it's a dusty hellhole full of old people and bigots, and 70% of the year the weather's so shitty you can't even leave your house without a 5 pound jacket on. so i'm really looking forward to the change of place in general. i'm going to Victoria, and i'm really excited to be close to Seattle and Vancouver as well. especially because the music scene in that area is so big (you bet i'll be going broke on concerts lol). the aesthetics are also waaay better, everything's so green and alive compared to here. and i'm an urban girl anyways so big cities make me feel cozy. it should be a very nice change.

i'm also really excited for college-life in general. parties... fucking around... alcohol... i'm siked for that. but it'll be better the more people i meet, then i'll get invited to enough shit to fill the void in my mind for a long while. but then again, i'm shit at meeting people so i'm gonna need to get used to doing that quick. but considering a bunch of surgeons are gonna chip away at my face when i get FFS soon, i should have the pretty points to get invited to shit by default so long as i make a good impression.

all in all, i'm super hyped for my "Nicole from Class of '09 in college" era. since right now, if i unleash the bitch or emo, people just get scared of me like i'm going to shoot up the school or some shit (blaming it mostly on their parents or some shit. AMAB trans people need a fucking break).